Who will I be ?

It's 4am in the morning m and I guess you know that I haven't sleep yet . I'm having a stomach ache and I don't feel comfortable at all , therefore , i spent my wasteful night playing Temple Run . I just stopped playing it because I was so upset . It's only 100 plus to achieve the objective so I can get into the other level . I just couldn't accept it . 

I don't know what to do , it's just I was asking myself , in another 5 years , who am I ? Who'll I be ? 

Am I going to be a teacher ? 

Or a lawyers? 

Or somebody who works for Angkatan Tentera ? 

Or am I going to be the first woman prime minister of Malaysia ? (Oh this is so not me) 

Or maybe a wakil rakyat ? 

Or maybe an entrepreneur ? Businesswoman ? 

Or just a kain-batik-staying-at-home housewife ? 

I am so excited to know what will I be in future , I would love to know how big my career is , how tempting it is to my life . No matter what the future holds for me , I will always praying to good may the future be brighter than what I always thought , may everything be as smooth as silk in the hardships . May everything in His control . May everything be perfect on its own way . 

If I am a teacher , I'm going to be the best teacher my students will ever had .

If I am a lawyer , I'm gonna be a sincere lawyer so I won't be one step closer to neraka.

If I am the one who work for Angkatan Tentera , I will be loyal to my country . Fight till the spend for Malaysia . 

If I am the first woman Prime minister of Malaysia , I'm going to unite every each of us . To stay together even we are different races , relegions , skin colours , political views . We are Malaysians . We unites in and out. We fight for Malaysia , because we are one . 

If I am a wakil rakyat , I'll make sure my Kawasan won't be gelap , won't have lobang on the road , there won't be masalah longkang . And my people won't live in hungry and fear . 

If I am an entrepreneur nor a businesswoman , I'm so gonna be like Vivy Yusof . Having my own empire of business. Creating my own name in my own class. 

If I am just a kain-batik-staying-at-home housewife , I will make sure my house is clean like in the castle . Everything is shining like a diamond . The mirrors are so kilat till tu can ootd on it . My kids are under control . My husband loves me , loves home , loves our family much every single day . I swear I'm gonna be a devoted mother and wife to my kids and husband . 

For whatever I might turn into in another 5 or 10 years , I pray to Allah , hoping that I won't be riak and forget about from who the success belong and come from , from where it begin. I will always love my life no matter how dull it will turn to in future .

I actually wanted to be a teacher who is a businesswoman that inspires other women like I am the first Woman Prime minister of Malaysia . Loyal to her students and fight for education till the end .Care about her students like a wakil rakyat , defending her children like a lawyer in court and care for them like a kain-batik-staying-at-home housewife . Bhahahahaha . 

Will this happens to me in future ? 

In syaa Allah . If Allah wills it . Believe in , kun fayakun. 

 

Crazy or what man ?